Becoming

Contemplations of a life in process

Welcome dinner February 7, 2009

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Last Saturday, the Primemovers (our church’s ministry for young professionals) had a welcome dinner for the incoming Primemovers this year. We had it at Regali Kitchen, somewhere in Tandang Sora (I can’t remember the exact address).  It’s actually a house that is converted to a cozy dining area. We had a great time just having fellowship with each other. While we were eating their amazing food, we were also being entertained by songs rendered by Tim and Carlo. We got to meet the Cada family who owned the house and found out that they do this kind of thing about once a month. They call it the Dine and Jam, and the guests get to eat food prepared by the chef (who is one of the sons), and entertained by an in house band.  

I really liked the idea that we got to welcome the Forerunners (youth ministry of the church) this way. we’ve been wanting one for a long time now. You see there was always a difficulty in the transition between being a student and a professional. Having connection events like this would help ease the transition. 

Anyway, we hope to go back to the venue again, I already know of some people who are planning to book it again for birthdays and such. Here are some pictures from the event.

 

Kamille outside Regali Kitchen

Kamille outside Regali Kitchen

 

My dinner - sarap!

My dinner - sarap!

 

Loving the band

Loving the band

 

Tim and Carlo

Tim and Carlo

 

Naki jam din kami - hehe

Naki jam din kami - hehe

 

Lanas sleepy already

Lana's sleepy already

More pictures here.

 

Updates! January 31, 2009

Filed under: Random Ramblings, Shutterbug — Aubrey @ 3:39 am

I have been a bad blogger! There are so many things I could have blogged about this past 2 weeks but I just haven’t had the energy or the motivation to do so. Add to that the fact that we didn’t have Internet at work also for 2 weeks now, and by the time I get home from work, I find myself being too exhausted to think of what to blog about. But since today is Saturday, I thought I’d just go and bloga about all the things that have been happening to me for the last 2 weeks. 

  • TFCA’s E.P.A.L. ( Employees Play and Leisure) Fest ‘09   > at the school where I work, we usually have a Sportsfest during exam days for the teachers, sort of like a stress reliever for all the deadlines we all had to meet before the exam. For the past years we would usually play games like volleyball, and basketball (yes, even for girls, although the usual rules don’t apply to us). This school year we didn’t have one for the 1st and 2nd quarter but this 3rd quarter we did something different. We called it the “Fractured Sportsfest”. We played volleyball but with the big exercise ball, Patintero, Agawan Panyo, Day and Night(my first time to play this game) and Touch Ball ( I won this game – yay). It was the best sportsfest yet because we all got to participate, especially for people like me who only like watching games and not playing it. Unfortunately also  for people like me, waking up for the next 2 days was harder than usual, becaule of all the bodyache that resulted from all the jumping and stretching and running. Man was I exhausted especially after the second day, I played in all the games! But I won in Touch Ball! Iwas the only one who didn’t get hit by the ball! ven I was surprised by that, but grabe ha after that game I couldn’t breathe. I crawled from the center of the court to the side because I thought I was going to collapse, haha. But it was all good though…that was probably the most exercise I’ve had in a year…hehe, it was a good way to start my goal of losing weight this year. Here are some pictures of the games.
     

Agawan Panyo with Team Galapong!
Agawan Panyo with Team Galapong!
Pastor Sunday and Pastor Bong
Pastor Sunday and Pastor Bong
 
Day and Night - this game was confusing!
Day and Night – this game was confusing!

 

  • Teachers’ Day ‘09 – we celebrated late because there was not enough time for preparations. But it was fun. Yash and I were announced King and Queen (Male and Female Teacher of the Year for the High School). Unfortunately, we had to dance like we were the Prom King and Queen, it would have been fine except we were on stage and in front of the  whole school =). But still the Student Council did a good job.
    Happy Teachers Day!

    Happy Teacher's Day!

     

     

 


 

Finally! November 3, 2008

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Finally, a new blog header, in honor of the gallons of tea I have been drinking these past few days. Words are from Jars of Clay’s “Tea and Sympathy”.

 

October 1 October 2, 2008

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Yesterday, I did something I haven’t done in a really loooooooooong time…

 

Finally, after 3 – 4 months, I was able to play with my Nintendo DS! I haven’t had time to play it because so much has been happening these past few months, I feel bad for my puppies in Nintendogs, they were filthy and hungry when I checked on them again. Hopefully, I’ll have time to de-stress with my DS over the next few days. 

Nothing like Professor Layton to make you forget lesson plans, and quarter exams…

 

untitled September 29, 2008

Filed under: Random Ramblings — Aubrey @ 4:27 am
Take me to the road less travelled
Where feet barely walk, and the lost are welcome.
Where my feet will be blistered, tortured by the rough terrain.
Let me pass through that narrow way
Where the sun beats on my back, and no trees shade me from the heat.
Where there is little water to quench a thirst that will never go away.
Show me that road, lead me through that way.
To that direction I’ve never been to,
Where the only sure thing is the uncertainty of my journey.
Hold my hand while I travel,
and when I fall pick me up.
Help me not give up as I trudge the way,
Over valleys, over hills, over mountains.
Then welcome me to that glorious end,
Where my feet won’t walk on rocks,
But a street that’s paved with gold.
There my old tattered clothes are worn off,
and my broken, battered body made new.
There, greet me with a hug, a smile a shout.
Take me in your arms and say the words I long to hear
Welcome home, my faithful one
 

Would you give up the one you love most? September 17, 2008

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Ptr. Sunday showed this to the church last Sunday, I was crying while it was being shown, I remembered the story of the Golden Goblet and how it must have hurt God to let His only Son die for people who never seemed to notice what sacrifice was done for them to live.

It was so heartbreaking seeing the father cry when he had to make the choice, but he loved the train and he loved the people inside the train, so in the end he had to choose. 

I wonder if I would do the same thing, if I would be asked to choose, I keep thinking what would be that one thing that I would be asked to give up…

I’m scared.

 

 

The Golden Goblet September 8, 2008

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In between our Tagalog and English service this morning, I was able to read  this story beautifully written by Max Lucado. I was crying by the end because  it’ s been so long that I’ve felt moved by whatever I read. But this one was especially memorable because yesterday was Communion Sunday. We remembered the sacrifice of the father for His children. I’ve come to the point where I’ve taken my salvation for granted and this reminded of how much was given so that I could be free. God is so amazing, isn’t He? I hope you’ll be blessed like I was. 

 

 

Flames leap from the hill. Pillow of smoke float upward.  Orange tongues crack and pop.
From the midst of the blaze comes a yell – the protest of a prisoner as the dungeon door is locked; the roar of a lion as he feels the heat of the burning jungle.
The cry of a lost son as he looks for his father.

“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”

The words ricochet from star to star, crashing into the chamber of the King.  Couriers from a bloody battlefield, they stumble into the Kind’s presence.  Bruised and broken, they plea for help, for relief.

The soldiers of the King prepare to attack.  They mount their steeds and position their shields.  They draw their swords.  But the King is silent.  It is the hour for which he has planned.  He knows his course of action.  He has awaited those words since the beginning – since the first poison was smuggled into the kingdom.
It came camouflaged.  It came in a golden cup with a long stem.  It was in the flavor of fruit.  It came not in the hands of a king, but the hands of a price – the prince of shadows.
Until this moment there had been no reason to hide in the Garden.  The King walked with his children and the children knew their King.  There were no secrets.  There were no shadows.
Then the prince of shadows entered the Garden.  He had to hide himself.  He was too ugly, too repulsive.  Craters marred his face.  So he come in darkness.  He came encircled in ebony.  He was completely hidden; only his voice could be heard.
“Taste it.” He whispered, holding the goblet before her. “It’s sweet with wisdom.”
The daughter heard the voice and turned.  She was intrigued.  Her eyes had never seen a shadow.  There was something tantalizing about his hiddenness.
The King watched.  His army knew the prince of shadows would be no contest for their mighty legion.  Eagerly they awaited the command to attack.
But no command was given.
“The choice is hers,” the King instructed. “If she turns to us for help. That is your command to deliver her.  If she doesn’t turn, if she doesn’t look to me – don’t.  The choice is hers.”
The daughter stared at the goblet.  Rubies embedded in gold invited her touch.  Wine wooed her to taste.  She reached out and took the cup and drank the poison.  Her eyes never looked up.
The venom rushed through her, distorting her vision, scaring her skin, and twisting her heart.  She ducked into the shadow of the prince.
Suddenly she was lonely.  She missed the intimacy she was made to know.  Yet rather than return to the King, she chose to lure another away from him.  She replenished the goblet and offered it to the song.
Once again the army snapped into position.  Once again they listened for the command of the King.  His words were the same.  “If he looks to me, then rush to him.  If he doesn’t, then don’t go.  The choice is his.”
The daughter placed the goblet into the hands of the son. “It’s all right,” she assured. “It’s sweet.”  The son looked at the delight that danced in her eyes.  Behind her stood a silhouetted figure.  “Who is he?” the son asked.
“Drink it.” She insisted.  Her voice was husky with desire.  The goblet was cold against Adam’s lips.  The liquid burned his innocence.  “More?” he requested as he ran his finger through the dregs on the bottom and put it to his mouth.
The soldiers looked to their King for instructions.  His eyes were moist.
“Bring me your sword!” The general dismounted and stepped quickly toward the throne.  He extended the unsheathed blade before the King.
The King didn’t take it; he merely touched it.  As the tip of his finger encountered the top of the sword, the iron grew orange with heat.  It grew brighter and brighter until it blazed.
The general held the fiery sword and awaited the King’s command.  It came in the form of an edict.
“Their choice will be honored.  Where there is poison, there will be death.  Where there are goblets, there will be fire.  Let it be done.”
The general galloped to the Garden and took his post at the gate.  The flaming sword proclaimed that the kingdom of light would never again be darkened by the passing of shadows.  The King hated the shadows.  He hated them because in the shadows the children could not see their King.  The King hated the goblets.  He hated them because they made the children forget the Father. 
But outside the Garden the circle of the shadow grew larger and more empty goblets littered the ground.  More faces were disfigured.  More yes saw distortedly .  More souls were twisted.  Purity was forgotten and all sight of the King was lost. No one remembered that once there was a kingdom without shadows.

In their hands were the goblets of selfishness.

On their lips was the litany of the liar.  “Taste it; it’s sweet.”

And true to the words of the King, where there was poison, there was death.  Where there were goblets, there was fire.  Until the day the King sent his Prince.
The same fire that ignited the sword now lit a candle and placed it amidst the shadow.
His arrival, like that of the goblet bearer, did not go unnoticed.
“A star!” was how his coming was announced.  “A bright light in a dark sky.”  A diamond glittering in the dirt.

“Burn brightly my Son.” Whispered the King.

Many times the Prince of Light was offered the goblet.  Many times it came in the hands of those who’d abandoned the King.  “Just a taste, my friend?” with anguish Jesus would look into the eyes of those who tried to tempt him.  What is this poison that would make a prisoner try to kill the one who came to release him?
The goblet still bore the seductive flavor of promised power and pleasure.  But to the Song of Light its odor was vile.  The very sight of the goblet so angered the Prince that he knocked it out of the hand of the tempter, leaving the two alone, locked in an intense glare.
“I will taste the poison,” swore the King’s Song.  “For this I have come.  But the hour will be mine to choose.”
Finally that hour came.  The Son went for one last visit with his Father.  He met Him in another garden.  A garden of gnarled trees and stony soil.

“Does it have to be this way?”
“It does.”
“Is there no one else who can do it?”
The King swallowed. “None but you.”
“Do I have to drink from the cup?”
“Yes, my Child.  The same cup.”
He looked at the Prince of Light. “The darkness will be great.”
 He passed his hand over the spotless face of his Song.  “the pain will be awful.”  Then he paused and looked at his darkened dominion. When he looked up, his eyes were moist. “But there is no other way.”
The Son looked into the stars as he heard the answer.  “Then, let it be done.”
Slowly the words that would kill the Son began to come from the lips of the Father.
“Hour of death, moment of sacrifice, it is your moment.  Rehearsed a million times on the false altars with false lambs, the moment of truth has come.
“Soldiers, you think you lead him? Ropes, you think you bind him? Men, you think you sentence him? He heeds not your commands.  He winces not at your lashes.  It is my voice he obeys. It is my condemnation he dreads.  And it is your souls he saves.
    “Oh , my Son, my Child.  Look up into the heavens and see my face before I turn it.  Hear my voice before I silence it.  Would that I could save you and them.  But they don’t see and they don’t hear.
“The living must die so that the dying can live.  The time has come to kill the Lamb.
    “Here is the cup, my son.  The cup of sorrows.  The cup of sin. 
    “Slam, mallet!  Be true to your task.  Let your ring be heard throughout the heavens.
    “Lift him, soldiers.  Lift him high to his throne of mercy.  Life him up to his perch of death.  Lift him above the people that curse his name.
    “Now plunge the tree into the earth.  Plunge it deep into the heart of humanity.  Deep into the strata of time past.  Deep into the seeds of time future.
    “Is there no angel to save my Isaac?  Is there no hand to redeem the Redeemer?
    “Here is the cup, my Son.  Drink it alone.”
    God must have wept as he performed his task.  Every lie, every lure, every act done in shadows was in that cup.  Slowly, hideously they were absorbed into the body of the Song.  The final act of incarnation.
    The Spotless Lamb was blemished.  Flames began to lick his feet.
    The King obeys his own edict. “where there is poisons, there will be death.  Where there are goblets, there will be fire.”
    The King turns away from his Prince.  The undiluted wrath of a sin-hating Father falls upon his sin filled Son.  The fire envelops him.  The shadow hides him.  The Son looks for his Father, but his Father cannot be seen.
    “My God, my God… why?”

The throne room is dark and cavernous.  The eyes of the King are closed.  He is resting.
    In his dream he is again in the Garden.  The cool of the evening floats across the river as the three walk.  They speak of the Garden – of how it is, of how it will be.
    “Father…,” the Son begins. The King replays the word again.  Father. Father. The word was a flower, petal-delicate, yet so easily crushed.  Oh, how he longed for his children to call him Father again.
    A noise snaps him from his dream.  He opens his eyes and sees a transcendent figure gleaming in the doorway.  “It is finished, Father.  I have come home.”

 

Nothing beats the real thing August 23, 2008

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I can’t access my old blogdrive accout. I’ve been trying for about two hours now but still to  no avail. That’s two years of blog entries that I won’t be able to read anymore! Crap.

Sorry. I didn’t want to say that but I couldn’t think of another word. I just realized how maintaining an online diary isn’t as reliable as the good old notebook journal. I haven’t a kept a real journal in about 3 years, not since I started blogging, it’s a shame, because for me nothing still beats writing in your own handwriting. My emotions are seen clearly on the way I write, for example I write really big when I’m mad, I even wrote one entry using black permanent marker. I’ve shared my most intimate secrets in this red journal I bought at Papemelroti back when I was still in high school, it has survived college, graduation, a new career, and 2 breakups.

I miss that journal, I left it at our house in Fairview. Since we transferred here in San Juan, I haven’t had the time to go and get it. I’ll try to get it on Monday since there would be no work. I want to curl up on my bed and reminisce on all the adventures I’ve had through those years.

I have this new journal, well actually an old one that my boyfriend gave me, but haven’t used yet.  I think it’s time to begin a new adventure.

 

You look pretty today! August 15, 2008

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Ten minutes upon arriving at school, 2 people complimented me and said that I looked pretty today.

I think that just about made my week. 

And later, Yash and I will go out and celebrate our 3rd year anniversary.

That will make my weekend. :)

 

The Quiet World August 5, 2008

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I love, love, love this poem!!!!

The Quiet World
 
 
  In an effort to get people to look
into each other’s eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear
without saying hello. In the restaurant
I point at chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn’t respond,
I know she’s used up all her words,
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.

Jeffrey McDaniel